Upside down
Two things hit me big today. First is of the news that doggie is dying. Went see him at the pet hospital just now. His whole body was so stiff, having just went thru a half an hr fit and is now in coma. Waiting for the blood test result tmr before deciding whether to put him to sleep. Looking at his thin, stiff body, life suddenly felt so heavy, so precious..once again reminded of how fragile life can be.Second thing tt hit me..I dun really wana state the reason it happened but suddenly I'm beginning to question whether is it tt the gap in my heart is so big now tt no one can fill it up or is it that I refused to let anyone fill it up? Am I asking for too much or is it just so happen none so far has managed to fill up the empty hole? Some came and go but just not the right one. Maybe someday..No appetite for dinner thou stomach is growling. Pain is nudging from the old place but simply cannot find the efforts to take in and digest food. Mum is nagging at me once every min to eat something; refuses to let me go on losing weight. Guess that's how all mums behave..
Kisses XOXO Tuesday, February 26, 2008
